Anxious! Nervous!

Bonsoir tout le monde.

Ok, January update. I have to say that 2012 greets me well, i've received a conditional offer from Newcastle University that I wanted so badly. The fact that it is a conditional offer worries me though. Well, as what had been notified to me by my GM, he had submitted a reference to the Uni. and i asked my lecturer, well he said that he had received and will fill it out and send it back accordingly.

But how do i know that the uni had received my documents???

aaaaa.....i cant sleep thinking about it though. my plan is that im going to do a follow up with my lecturer (harassing people as usual) and call the uni to ask them about it. then straight to deposit and i will have the confirmation of a place there.

well...i hope that all goes well....

Anxious! Nervous!

A la prochaine fois!

Ooh la la! Bonjour~

Ok bloghoppers!

It's been two months of no updates. Well, if previously, my life's a bore, now it has become bore-errrrrr! Ok my internship is not going so well, just as i am reaching the 2nd month period of this freaking programme, i have become more and more demotivated. Not sure why, but a routine life is just not for me....previously i have mentioned that i was soooo looking forward to it, and a month had passed, and i felt that it was the longest one month ever. the only thing that kept me moving on was just the thought of killing the time productively before i continue my postgrad studies.

there's a good news as well, i have managed to obtained overall score of band 7.5 and 7.0 in writing for my ielts, now i am qualified to apply, just that i have to come up with 2 references and a personal statement for the application. life's hard huh???

to sum this little post that i managed to write today. i am unhappy, and i'm not sure why....shucks!

adieu~

Okies Cookies

Well hello there reader.

I guess it is unlucky for you that you bumped into my lame blog. If you decided to stay and read for a while, you are most welcome dearest :) In advance, thank you xx

I know that there isn't any update here, well....life's a bore when you're a bore, that's me. A plain Jane. Anyhow, any who, anyways....here's a lil some in' some in'

Writing to kill the time when I should be sleeping right now, it is 3 a.m. and I am wide awake. Reading about the master controller mod of the sims 3, which makes no sense to me ( I am not actually tech savvy) and because of that, I'm a little disappointed. Haha...I'm trying to make a purdy sims...

Truth is....I think I'm too old to be playing imaginary games, when I should be serious in applying for postgrad studies, reading on the requirements, core subjects -----> essay paper!! scary!! dissertation!! uber scary!!!

But I am not chickening out of it. Gonna face it like a tough chick :)

Chick? Chicken???

Apart from that, this week will be the last week of holidays for me as life's getting serious, I will start an internship programme for the period of 8 months. A paid internship, which is flexible and in accordance to what  I want and my liking. I'll be part of the corporate comm and gov relations dept. in a very well known organisation in Malaysia. Issit? I know for the fact it's big.

*Flashback*


They asked me why I didn't look for a job for good and move on with life during the interview...and I answered. I want to learn and prepare myself.

Wanna know the truth?

Lack of confidence. Lack of motivation (continuing postgrad)

Therefore, I'm going to use this learning opportunity for good. :) Build up the confidence. A new life starts on 17th October 2011.

Enough crapping for the day... adieu

Movies and Virus

Hello,

It just felt like such a long time that I haven't update this lil thing. Due to lack of interesting info in my life, I've decided that it is better that I leave this blog alone.

Well,

Yesterday I decided to watch Johnny English and Contagion. Yes, two movies in one day. Well, Johnny English was great for a good laugh. It's Rowan Atkinson, so what do you expect right?? And Contagion was not really memorable. But it was a movie with a message. First, don't trust rumours and duh! not everything on the net is true. And stop being so paranoid; this refers to the weaponised thingy. 

Contagion was based on a true story, many may relate it to H1N1 disease, as it was the recent contagious virus that had been spread worldwide.In fact, the movie is actually based on the incident happened in Malaysia back in 1998, which is called the Nipah Virus. And....it is Malaysian whom actually found the vaccine for the virus. C'est pas americain.

 *source:http://foodsafety.suencs.com/archives/15453

In 1998, I was 10 years old. So, I wasn't paying much attention to such disease as my father told me that it got something to do with the pigs. Yeah, we actually had to kill a lot of pigs here in Peninsular Malaysia, to avoid the virus from spreading. I remembered that.

How the virus exist in the first place, it actually explained in the movie. I don't wanna spoil it here. As for merely  reviewing the movie, it was not a boring, serious type of movie. It is serious but not boring.

That's it for now. 

Serious change

As I mentioned earlier, since I had that wonderful nap of mine...at 4 a.m. I can't sleep. While I was watching the second season of sex and the city, my mind wandered off the show. As time passed, I know that I have to get serious with this application of post-grad studies. OK, application is always going to be meticulous and I know that I can handle it. It is the fact of being a student studying International Relations that scares me.

Why??

It is because I haven't prepared myself for it. All I did was watching some silly TV series and I perfectly knew that I should be reading on serious foreign relations stuff. Issues regarding the world and I am supposed to have some thoughts about it. But, the truth is...I haven't done any of that. Therefore, my knowledge is zero.

Then, how am I supposed to handle discussions??? God! that this scares me...

So, I think that I need to make some serious change in my life. Going back to reality and the holiday is over!

Wish me luck :)

Silly

It is so silly of me to take a nap at 9 p.m. Now at 12 a.m. I am wide awake and I know that I will only get to bed at 6 in the morning. Not only that, I took my nap in less than an hour after dinner. Later, I know that I'll be saying that I'm fat and such, but the fact is....I just didn't take good care of my body.

Lately...I have been feeling that my body isn't in a very good form, and I'm only 22. I just don't have the strength and stamina like i used to. That is why the current obsession with all the physical activities happened. I just want to be the person that i used to be. 

I only got myself to blame.

Insomnia

It is 2.45 a.m.

And, I can't sleep. I'm not insomniac by the way. When I was studying or working I had no problem going to bed early, because I was exhausted, but now as I am free, it was kind of hard for me just to sleep early. Maybe I have seasonal insomnia, like seasonal depression.

Oh well, I have just finished watching the first season of sex and the city, I know that it's like wayyy outdated, but at this age watching it...I can finally understand the series. I was watching the second movie of it on HBO the other day...and I was curious to know how the series actually is, so I search for it and give it a try. It was fun. Hehe

And now, I am writing...don't I just feel like Carrie Bradshaw right now?? haha dans ma reve! If only i had my own column. If I have. what would it be about??? And my writing isn't that great anyways. One of the reasons why I set up a blog, is to practice writing.  I just hope it works.

Apart from that, I just feel that writing gives me a peace of mind. I can actually vent, but I do need to self-censor myself here. It doesn't substitute an actual person. HEE

Now, I will move to season 2. hehe. Time for some therapy?

A la prochaine fois :)