Happy bean

Beans, good source of protein, the culprit to some gas problems.

One type of bean in particular that makes me hype and happy on this very moment is coffee. Well, not exactly the beans, but basically the caffeine. However, it baffles me a bit that I'm so happy on this very moment and I don't know why. Perhaps it is the after effect of caffeine or perhaps it is just simply that I am content with life, as of now.......I have all the time in the world to solely focus on myself, not the traffic (currently unemployed) and everything else in life seems to flow smoothly.

But I still have this one particular issue I have in mind...but everything seems to be under control and I shall gain control.

As promised, there will be a life update on this post.

And so, as of April 2013, I have gotten  my ass back to my beloved country Malaysia (which I'm glad I did) in attempts to recover and find myself. And another fact that my previous visa was curtailed, thus I have no other choice than coming back home. I did get my life out of control for the first month, party and what not.Then I got a job. Wasn't happy with the first one, then I got another job. However now, I have ended my stint and enjoying a purrrfect holiday before my study commences.

As far as study goes, I admit that I haven't paid much attention to it and I particularly enjoyed life as a bum. This time around I'm pretty confident that I'll nailed it, not that I have that high of expectations of myself, but graduating itself is enough. Getting a distinction will be a bonus, but earning a MA will suffice for me to proceed on to the next chapter in life, which is career.

Currently, I am focusing on rebuilding myself with a stronger sense of control as I've recovered from one thing, but I enjoyed food so much until it kinda get overboard a tiny bit, its okay, it is better to be alive and healthy than thin and depressed. Plus, I'm glad that I am not that obsessive about body image as before and actually focuses on other things in life rather than just that.

I renewed my looks, took better care of myself (apparently this is only accomplishesd while I was at my mom's) and swimming happily with the things i love....piercings!!! Haha, it seems that I might be going to that phase again in life, perhaps looking dark and rebellious is my kinda of thing. It makes me happy though, yeah...totally the opposite of my appearance. But who cares.

And...I have lost my train of thoughts.

My current activity for today, is catching up on watching all these tv series, which actually what inspires me to write more actively. It makes me dream.....So, to end this amazingly boring and full of crap post, I quote Lennon 'You may say that I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.'

Keep on dreaming big and go after it! Make it happen.

P/S: Got my visa earlier today, maybe thats why Imma happy bean :)