A friend told me that I haven't been writing for quite sometime, and he mentioned it is good for me to keep on writing to get my life and myself in check. I guess he was right. I never really want to be a writer nor do I have the flare in writing, but writing for me is something personal, a way of expressing what I feel or think. Of course part of me is glad that I may not have that much number of page views or I have any fans or any following or what not, or else I will seriously jeopardising myself with whatever crap I put on here. Perhaps that is why I am NOT a writer. Nonetheless, the issue or matter at hand here is the little push that we as human being needs in life.
Well, apart from that 'push' given by a friend, I have spent my weekend watching The Carrie Diaries. Childish as it may seem, but I don't think that the issues highlighted in that series are really that childish. Watching it as a fan of SATC well...Sex and the City to some of you that aren't familiar with the acronym, I enjoyed it. Loved Larissa....uh!! how I wished I could meet my Larissa at the age of 16 and give me the push to pursue my dreams, be my own person and have my own power in my own life. One of the main reason why I love SATC so much is that, the OBVIOUS ladies issues, and how it 'somehow' affirming that I'm not the only one thinks or feel that way. The silly dirty jokes that we all love, the adorable characters but my number one reason is that, its okay to dream, and to go after your dream and its okay to break and fell apart but it is important that we rise back up and pick ourselves again. Well....the theme continues in The Carrie Diaries...keep on dreaming ladies because you never know that it might just come true.
And.....watching Carrie Bradshaw writes, makes me want to write again, another push perhaps? Although, I don't really have anything much to say at the moment, apart from the fact that I have start to live again! Ho yeah! Finding my own self and learning to love myself have become and on going process that will never end. Hey, we are human and thats what we do, we learn and continue to learn until....who knows when. Have I digress so far from the topic now? But think about it guys. It may not be in everything we do that we needed the 'push' but a push is necessary to get life going.
As I was writing the last sentence above, a thought have came to me. Maybe that whatever have occurred to me in the last year was a big push for me, yes it have pushed me straight off cliff until I have to stop everything, regroup myself again to learn and to know myself, not me with anybody, just me as Ilya. I guess such occurrence was the push I needed to learn more about life and to appreciate life itself. And maybe, to appreciate myself better. Believe me, I have never been happier after I've done so, but journey is not ending, this is only the beginning of something amazing.
A la prochaine fois. XX
P/S: I will put up another post on life update next. Looking forward for more uplifting post compared to all these dark and depressing posts previously. I promised! XOXO
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